As part of our determination to restore our health (especially mine), Gordon and I visited my brother and sister-in-law in Arlington, TX. The last time I was healed, it was Mike who had prayed for me. I didn’t stay healed that time, so, we decided to try again.
During our visit, they prayed for us and ministered to us in a powerful way. Although we went there for my physical healing, the biggest need wasn’t physical. What we really needed had more to do with our relationship than our health.
They helped me to see that because I tend to be a submissive wife and a somewhat passive person, my own identity had become lost – I expected Gordon to be my spiritual leader and I was letting myself be defined by his personal beliefs and opinions. Gordon has been my Caregiver for many years, so it was easy to depend on him for my relationship with God as well.
Gordon has a strong and sometimes dominant personality; he reads and studies a lot, and he is very smart. So, it’s very easy for him to step into the leadership role and be expressive of his knowledge, beliefs and opinions.
Consequently, I had to ‘wake up’ and ‘come forth’ as a person. Nancy encouraged me to (re)develop my own personal relationship with God. Gordon had to ’step down’ from the pedestal I had placed him on; and to allow me to be my own person.
The next day, I began to express my own feelings, beliefs and opinions. I truly had been raised form the dead so-to-speak. I felt so alive! Now, I am having my own time with God each day, and I am reading again – something I thought I was unable to do because of my vision problem (amazing how that cleared up once I decided to read again). The first book I read was, ‘Free To Be Me’ by Betty Robinson. Appropriate choice.
Now, I’m reading, ‘If God is Love.’ by Mulholland. It’s great to be reading my Bible, my daily devotional guide, and good books again! I thank God and Mike and Nancy for helping me to see how buried I had become, and for setting me free!
2010 is truly the year of restoration for us!